The sweat clings to Ryan’s skin like an expensive foundation gone wrong.
She pushes through the curtain, and the arena’s roar dies behind her—The Great Stampede’s energy dissolves into nothing more than white noise. Her red and gold ring gear, custom-designed and usually flawless, feels like it weighs a thousand pounds. Like wearing Balenciaga to your own funeral.
The metallic taste of defeat coats her tongue. Again.
It’s becoming a signature flavor, and Ryan fucking hates it. She’d rather be tasting champagne at some Upper East Side rooftop party, not this bitter reminder that Azure—Azure, with her stupidly perfect name and even more stupidly perfect diving cutter—had just made her look like an amateur. For the second time.
The Touch of Azure. Even the name makes her want to vomit.
Ryan replays it in slow motion, the way you replay a particularly humiliating social media post that everyone’s already screenshotted. The blur of Azure’s body cutting through the air. The sickening impact that rattled her bones. The crowd’s explosion of approval that definitely wasn’t for her.
Sure, The Bloom walked away with the actual victory tonight. But everyone in that arena knew the real story. Azure had gotten the jump on Ryan. Again. Made her look foolish. Again. Left her sprawled on the mat like some nobody who’d wandered in off the street.
The thought makes her stomach clench with something that feels dangerously close to nausea.
She stalks toward the locker room, her designer wrestling boots clicking against the concrete floor with each furious step. The sound echoes in the empty hallway like a countdown to her own irrelevance. Other wrestlers brush past her—some offering sympathetic nods, others pretending not to see her at all. The latter group stings more than she’d ever admit.
Ryan catches her reflection in a mirror mounted on the hallway wall and immediately wishes she hadn’t. Her usually perfect hair is matted with sweat and defeat. Her makeup, carefully applied hours ago to look effortlessly flawless under the arena lights, has smudged into something that screams “try-hard who failed anyway.”
She looks like what she’s becoming: a joke.
And Azure—beautiful, talented, infuriatingly perfect Azure—is the punchline everyone’s laughing at. The setup to Ryan’s humiliation. The reason why her phone will be buzzing with notifications from wrestling blogs and social media accounts, all dissecting exactly how she got outmaneuvered by someone who should have been beneath her notice.
The locker room door looms ahead like the entrance to her own personal hell.
Ryan pauses, her hand on the cold metal handle, and allows herself exactly three seconds to feel the full weight of this moment. The disappointment settled on her shoulders like a cashmere scarf she never wanted to wear. The knowledge that somewhere in this building, Azure is probably celebrating with friends, maybe even laughing about how easy it was to get under Ryan’s skin.
The very thought makes her jaw clench so hard her teeth ache.
She pushes through the door, and the familiar scent of expensive body wash and designer perfume—her locker room sanctuary, usually—now feels like a mockery. All these beautiful things, all this carefully curated perfection, and for what? To get shown up by someone whose finishing move sounds like a pretentious cocktail order?
Ryan sinks onto the bench in front of her locker, still in her ring gear, still tasting defeat.
Her phone buzzes. Then again. And again.
She doesn’t need to look to know what’s waiting for her. The wrestling world moves fast, and humiliation travels even faster. By tomorrow morning, there will be GIFs of Azure’s impromptu cutter. Video packages highlighting Ryan’s shocked expression as she hit the mat. Commentary about how the once-promising star is losing her edge.
The worst part? They won’t be wrong.
Ryan finally reaches for her phone, her manicured fingers trembling slightly as she swipes to unlock it. The notifications flood her screen like a digital avalanche of everything she doesn’t want to see. Wrestling news sites. Social media mentions. Text messages from people who probably think they’re being supportive but really just want to be close to the drama.
She scrolls through them with the same sick fascination that makes you watch a car accident in slow motion.
"Ryan looked completely lost out there tonight."
"Azure is really making a name for herself at Ryan’s expense."
"Is this the beginning of the end for Ryan’s push?"
Each comment feels like a small knife between her ribs. Precise. Surgical. Devastating.
Ryan sets the phone aside and stares at herself in the locker room mirror. Really stares. Not the quick glance she usually gives herself to check that everything’s perfect, but a long, honest look at what she’s become.
A beautiful failure. A designer disappointment. Someone who looks the part but can’t deliver when it matters.
The realization hits her like Azure’s diving cutter all over again.
She’s not just losing matches. She’s losing herself. The confidence that used to radiate from her like expensive perfume has been replaced by something desperate and grasping. The effortless superiority that made her special has curdled into try-hard desperation that everyone can smell from the cheap seats.
And Azure—fucking Azure—is the mirror reflecting back everything Ryan used to be and everything she’s failing to become.
The locker room feels smaller suddenly. Suffocating. Like wearing a couture gown that’s been tailored for someone else’s body. Beautiful, expensive, and completely wrong.
Ryan closes her eyes and lets the weight of another loss settle into her bones like winter in Manhattan. Cold. Inevitable. Unforgiving.
When she opens them again, her reflection looks back with something that might be determination or might just be delusion. In this light, it’s impossible to tell the difference.
But one thing is crystal clear: this can’t continue. She won’t let Azure turn her into a punchline. She won’t let herself become the cautionary tale that other wrestlers whisper about in locker rooms.
The taste of defeat is still bitter on her tongue, but underneath it, something else is brewing. Something that tastes like expensive champagne and feels like revenge.
Azure wants to play games? Fine.
Ryan knows how to play games better than anyone.